Over the Rainbow

I practiced Rocket 2 with my roommate yesterday. I really tore me up after a few nice days of primary - perhaps too comfortable with primary. Looking back, perhaps it was telling me that I need to step up my daily practice a bit. Today after teaching a pretty good modified primary class I came home and just crashed - under the covers and everything. I thought maybe and hour would refresh me, but I woke up at 4 and I was supposed to go observe a Hatha1 class at one of the studio classes where I teach and I had a tiny headache and was still exhausted so I just said that I couldn't go and came back to bed. I think there is a weather front coming through. I am still sore from practice yesterday. I'll get up for mysore tomorrow. Tomorrow the day I really pull out all the stops.

I am quitting my day job and trying to go part-time and teaching to support myself. Of course there is another income in our family, so we're not going completely over the deep end. At first I had so many doubts that it was hardly worth the stress of leaving my stressful job. But now that my decision is sinking in and with much support from my husband and my entire family, I now feel an inner peace that I may never have felt before.

Ironically, when I was in teacher training, my mentor asked if I was going to be one of those crazy people who try to make a living as a yoga teacher and run around to all sorts of yoga shalas, gyms and clubs teaching whatever, where ever and trying to stay true to my own practice - and I said no - I just wanted to teach one or two classes to make a little extra money. Then I learned how much I loved teaching and that continuing in a job that I hated and felt was making me physically, mentally and spiritually ill was far worse running all over town chasing elusive yoga jobs before some other teacher could get to them.

Whatever happens I am chasing my dream - chasing rainbows - which I have never done before. I've never given into anything risky, even if I thought it could bring me true happiness. I've always chosen the safe route. But now I'm taking the advice I'm always giving my students when they try arm balances for the first time - don't be afraid of falling on your face, or learn to tuck and roll.

Peace out