Living in the Moment

This past Sunday I had a very difficult practice. I was so excited to get to class and then when I got there it was as it something inside me had hardened and I couldn't let go no matter how hard I tried or how hard I tried not to try. It was extremely frustrating. It wasn't that my poses weren't in good alignment, but they were all "hard." My perfectionism just holding on tight and not letting go. Somehow I attributed it either to the flow class where we worked so much on alignment the day before, or to the fact that I had woken up that morning with a migraine. Headaches tend to bring out my most extreme traits, one of which is not being a relaxed and groovy person, in general - I try.
Monday I had intended on going to a late primary series, but I fell asleep and it was impossible for Tim to wake me up. I have been on Keppra for my headaches and neuralgia and I have severe fatigue and sometimes depression associated with it. Since I had gotten so much extra sleep I was able to get up and go to mysore practice the next morning. I had plenty of energy and had a great practice. I had forgotten how much I loved getting up and practicing first thing in the morning. I don't have the day's "baggage" rumbling around in my head, making me hard inside.
Wednesday I went to my favorite led class. I feel that I am back on the right path. I still struggled with some internal issues regarding being judgemental toward another student. I definitely struggled to put that one down. Especially since he was making me a little uncomfortable by constantly staring at me through the whole class. Let it go, breathe, drishti. Live in the moment of the breath and the pose. Live in the moment of compassion that you feel for yourself, for those around you and for those who need it most.